related to the targeted.

Okay so
About the targeted "crap" vid
Some saying i was being rude and disrespectful.

First of all,
I am really sorry if i was being rude or disrespectful.
I didn't mean to sound like that
I was only expressing my true feeling and how i feel about all this
I'm so sorry for didn't think before i do something
And
I am not trying to seek attention or whatever you guys think I'm trying to do
I just want some people to understand that i needed time
Time for myself
Time for my life
Time for all this YouTube stuff
I already said that i lose my motivations to keep going with this channel
But
I still think about y'all chilies and
"if i stop, why did i start?" thought keep running in my mind
So i decided to gather up some of that lil motivation i had left
And do some vids
And yea tbh I'm slowly getting my motivation back
But after awhile
Some people keep asking for targeted and i feel the pressure again
I finally can't take it anymore and posted the vid.
Once again I'm truly sorry if i was or am being rude, mean, disrespectful, dramatic toward y'all, chilies.
I promised to be better and improve myself.
I hope you guys can forgive me.

(sorry if there's any grammar mistake
English is not my first language)

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